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I'm back in San Diego. I arrived about 1 1/2 hour ago.

I have a job! I'm going to be the Assistant Stage Manager for the theater my dad works at. Lamb's Players Theater.
I'm extremely grateful for this job too. I very much prefer it to working at a department store or a food place.
I'm going to busy myself with goals this summer. I've grown a lot at Biola, and I don't want to lose it all. So, here's what I'm going to do.
1) work - I really want to do well, because then hopefully they'll want me back sometime. And these are the people I grew up with. I don't want to let them down. I'm very nervous about it, but I know that I can learn fast, and have trust in God to give me confidence to get the job done.

2) Learn the Ukelele. At least a bit of it. I kinda' feel inadiquate in my family because I dont play an instrument, and my voice isn't the best. The Peirsons are very musical. And music has been a HUGE part of my life. I dont go a day without singing, and their is no way my future husband will be tone deaf no matter what kind on ironic happenings my roommates predict for me. So. Ukelele.

3) work out. the hardest one of all. because I'm a lazy bum. Hopefully my brother can keep me active a bit..... and not manage to keep me so insanely active that I turn my back towards all activity. I really want to get some upper body strength. I'm a super wimp and don't even hurt people when I punch them full strength. It's sad. I'm so adorable, and it sickens me I can't beat someone up. I need to balance out the adorableness with an underlying weapon of war!

4) keep up with everyone I miss terribly. I would die if I had no Biola contact. Thank the Lord Amber lives in San Diego. As a fellow art major and Doctor Who fan, she's going to keep me sane this summer. And I want to hear from everyone else. I'm afraid I'll turn stalker on everyone. Jojo is going to be a camp counselor so I wont hear form her for over a month, Max will be gone at camp too. And Kenny doesn't have wifi in her house so we can't vid chat. I'm pretty sure I'll be going up to Santa Rosa to visit kenny for her b-day at the beginning of August though. So that's good news.

I'm already terrified of summer. I feel horrible because right now I'm not excited to see everyone I left. I feel like I'm being sucked back into high school and I hate it. I learned so much these past 9 months. And I'm a completely different person now. I love the person I am now. But now that I'm back I feel like I'm losing that person, like all the people around me made up who I was and now that all that is gone I'm no longer me. It's weird. Home is where the heart is, and I love my family so much and I'm so very happy to be back with them. But my heart is also with all the people at Biola. And that is spread across the country. Even across the world, when Mar gos back home to Turkey tomorrow. The people from high school want to hang out with me again. But I don't think they do. They want to hang out with a year ago me. That's not me anymore. It's amazing what 9 months can do to a person.
I moved into my dorm in Alpha exactly 9 months ago. And today I moved out of it. It's funny because I kinda' have the same feeling, but backwards. I left everything I knew, and went to a place that was different. My home isn't different, but everything is different to me now, because I'm different. I have new shades on, so I see the world in a whole new way.
I dont want to stop growing. That's why I made goals. I dont want summer time to be a push of the pause button until it play is hit again on August 22. I want it to keep playing. But it's just put in a different Television.

I'm going to be alright. This summer is going to rock. And next semester will rock. My life rocks :]

you rule,
brenna